This thing Sucked & Wanked Me Off
Yes, in a moment of madness I drove 3 hours to see this thick, horrid, and clearly a dole dosser and went to her squat of a flat. And yes I fucking pay for it in my Tax bill.
Bt hey, she was a crap blow job and the wank was ok as at least it was some one else wanking me off and not my self.
Wanking Links Great TGirls
Enjoy 
http://www.sweet-porno.com/she-male/blonde-shemale/zilla.html
http://gals.shemaleprivate.com/grooby/yum/40632/1.html
http://www.handmadegalleries.com/stroker/pics/jens/index.htm
http://www.orgy-tranny.com/022703/trannypic.html
http://www.escort-shemales.com/promo/022/escorts.html
http://www.freefetishseries.com/obr1410/02ets.html
http://gals.shemaleprivate.com/grooby/yum/41137/1.html
http://img.sex2inc.com/shemales/gallery/tsladies/xy/
http://gallery.shemaleis.com/g/tscum/s7/
http://gals.shemaleprivate.com/bobt/41673/1.html
http://gals.shemaleprivate.com/tscum/28034/1.html
http://www.tableporn.com/shemale/1080hshe106.html
http://www1.asiansexyshemales.com/bobstgirls/x1/141.html
http://www.asiansexyshemales.com/bobstgirls/x1/151.html
http://www.asiansexyshemales.com/bobstgirls/x1/2112.html
http://www.deluxeshemales.com/shemalemovies/n1bi.htm
http://www.topshemales.net/galleries/gangbang2/hb.html
http://www.hardcorevideos.org/aatransih/sheefitmale.html
http://free.justmarriedgays.com/natasha00/A68H3ACQ
http://free.justmarriedgays.com/natasha00/A68H448P
http://free.justmarriedgays.com/natasha00/A68H448Q
http://free.justmarriedgays.com/natasha00/A68H4AGQ
http://sex2inc.com/shemales/gallery/cartoon/
http://sex2inc.com/shemales/gallery/cartoon69/
http://www.animepicture.ws/sample/hs08/hentai-shemale-18.html
http://www.animepicture.ws/sample/hs33/hentai-tranny-17.html
http://www.animepicture.ws/sample/hs06/hentai-shemale-18.html
http://www.animepicture.ws/sample/hs24/pichunter.html
http://www.animepicture.ws/sample/hs07/hentai-shemale-15.html
http://www.messy-comics.net/tranny/cartoons.html
Suicide: Read This First
If you are feeling suicidal now, please stop long enough to read this. It will only take about five minutes. I do not want to talk you out of your bad feelings. I am not a therapist or other mental health professional – only someone who knows what it is like to be in pain.
I don’t know who you are, or why you are reading this page. I only know that for the moment, you’re reading it, and that is good. I can assume that you are here because you are troubled and considering ending your life. If it were possible, I would prefer to be there with you at this moment, to sit with you and talk, face to face and heart to heart. But since that is not possible, we will have to make do with this.
I have known a lot of people who have wanted to kill themselves, so I have some small idea of what you might be feeling. I know that you might not be up to reading a long book, so I am going to keep this short. While we are together here for the next five minutes, I have five simple, practical things I would like to share with you. I won’t argue with you about whether you should kill yourself. But I assume that if you are thinking about it, you feel pretty bad.
Well, you’re still reading, and that’s very good. I’d like to ask you to stay with me for the rest of this page. I hope it means that you’re at least a tiny bit unsure, somewhere deep inside, about whether or not you really will end your life. Often people feel that, even in the deepest darkness of despair. Being unsure about dying is okay and normal. The fact that you are still alive at this minute means you are still a little bit unsure. It means that even while you want to die, at the same time some part of you still wants to live. So let’s hang on to that, and keep going for a few more minutes.
Start by considering this statement:
“Suicide is not chosen; it happens
when pain exceeds
resources for coping with pain.”
That’s all it’s about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn’t even mean that you really want to die – it only means that you have more pain than you can cope with right now. If I start piling weights on your shoulders, you will eventually collapse if I add enough weights… no matter how much you want to remain standing. Willpower has nothing to do with it. Of course you would cheer yourself up, if you could.
Don’t accept it if someone tells you, “that’s not enough to be suicidal about.” There are many kinds of pain that may lead to suicide. Whether or not the pain is bearable may differ from person to person. What might be bearable to someone else, may not be bearable to you. The point at which the pain becomes unbearable depends on what kinds of coping resources you have. Individuals vary greatly in their capacity to withstand pain.
When pain exceeds pain-coping resources, suicidal feelings are the result. Suicide is neither wrong nor right; it is not a defect of character; it is morally neutral. It is simply an imbalance of pain versus coping resources.
You can survive suicidal feelings if you do either of two things: (1) find a way to reduce your pain, or (2) find a way to increase your coping resources. Both are possible.
Now I want to tell you five things to think about.
| 1 | You need to hear that people do get through this — even people who feel as badly as you are feeling now. Statistically, there is a very good chance that you are going to live. I hope that this information gives you some sense of hope. |
| 2 | Give yourself some distance. Say to yourself, “I will wait 24 hours before I do anything.” Or a week. Remember that feelings and actions are two different things – just because you feel like killing yourself, doesn’t mean that you have to actually do it right this minute. Put some distance between your suicidal feelings and suicidal action. Even if it’s just 24 hours. You have already done it for 5 minutes, just by reading this page. You can do it for another 5 minutes by continuing to read this page. Keep going, and realize that while you still feel suicidal, you are not, at this moment, acting on it. That is very encouraging to me, and I hope it is to you. |
| 3 | People often turn to suicide because they are seeking relief from pain. Remember that relief is a feeling. And you have to be alive to feel it. You will not feel the relief you so desperately seek, if you are dead. |
| 4 | Some people will react badly to your suicidal feelings, either because they are frightened, or angry; they may actually increase your pain instead of helping you, despite their intentions, by saying or doing thoughtless things. You have to understand that their bad reactions are about their fears, not about you.
But there are people out there who can be with you in this horrible time, and will not judge you, or argue with you, or send you to a hospital, or try to talk you out of how badly you feel. They will simply care for you. Find one of them. Now. Use your 24 hours, or your week, and tell someone what’s going on with you. It is okay to ask for help. Try:
But don’t give yourself the additional burden of trying to deal with this alone. Just talking about how you got to where you are, releases an awful lot of the pressure, and it might be just the additional coping resource you need to regain your balance. |
| 5 |
Suicidal feelings are, in and of themselves, traumatic. After they subside, you need to continue caring for yourself. Therapy is a really good idea. So are the various self-help groups available both in your community and on the Internet. |
Well, it’s been a few minutes and you’re still with me. I’m really glad.
Since you have made it this far, you deserve a reward. I think you should reward yourself by giving yourself a gift. The gift you will give yourself is a coping resource. Remember, back up near the top of the page, I said that the idea is to make sure you have more coping resources than you have pain. So let’s give you another coping resource, or two, or ten…! until they outnumber your sources of pain.
Now, while this page may have given you some small relief, the best coping resource we can give you is another human being to talk with. If you find someone who wants to listen, and tell them how you are feeling and how you got to this point, you will have increased your coping resources by one. Hopefully the first person you choose won’t be the last. There are a lot of people out there who really want to hear from you. It’s time to start looking around for one of them.
Now: I’d like you to call someone.
And while you’re at it, you can still stay with me for a bit. Check out these sources of online help.
Additional things to read at this site:
- How serious is our condition? ...“he only took 15 pills, he wasn’t really serious…” if others are making you feel like you’re just trying to get attention… read this.
- Why is it so hard for us to recover from being suicidal? …while most suicidal people recover and go on, others struggle with suicidal thoughts and feelings for months or even years. Suicide and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).
- Recovery from grief and loss …has anyone significant in your life recently died? You would be in good company… many suicidal people have recently suffered a loss.
- The stigma of suicide that prevents suicidal people from recovering: we are not only fighting our own pain, but the pain that others inflict on us… and that we ourselves add to. Stigma is a huge complicating factor in suicidal feelings.
- Resources about depression …if you are suicidal, you are most likely experiencing some form of depression. This is good news, because depression can be treated, helping you feel better.
Do you know someone who is suicidal… or would you like to be able to help, if the situation arises? Learn what to do, so that you can make the situation better, not worse.
- Handling a call from a suicidal person …a very helpful ten-point list that you can print out and keep near your phone or computer.
- What can I do to help someone who may be suicidal? …a helpful guide, includes Suicide Warning Signs.
Other online sources of help:
- The Samaritans – trained volunteers are available 24 hours a day to listen and provide emotional support. You can call a volunteer on the phone, or e-mail them. Confidential and non-judgmental. Short of writing to a psychotherapist, the best source of online help.
- Talk to a therapist online – Read this page to find out how.
- Depression support group online: Walkers in Darkness – Please note: this is a very big group, but amidst all the chatter (and occasional bickering), it is possible to find someone who will hear you and offer support.
- Psych Central has a good listing of online resources for suicide and other mental health needs.
- Still feel bad? These jokes might relieve the pressure for a minute or two.
- If you want help finding a human being to talk with in person, who can help you live through this, try reading this article about how to Choose a Competent Counselor.
Sometimes people need additional private help before they are ready to talk with someone in person. Here are three books you could read on your own in private. I know from personal experience that each one has helped someone like you.
- Suicide: The Forever Decision by Paul G. Quinnett, PhD (Continuum, 1989, $8.95, ISBN 0-8264-0391-3). Frank and helpful conversation with a therapist who cares. Order the book
- Choosing to Live: how to defeat suicide through cognitive therapy by Thomas E. Ellis PsyD and Cory F. Newman PhD (New Harbinger Publications, 1996, $12.95, ISBN 1-57224-056-3). Another conversational book with practical help for suicidal persons. Order the book
- How I Stayed Alive When My Brain Was Trying to Kill Me: One Person’s Guide to Suicide Prevention by Susan Rose Blauner (William Morrow, 2002, $17.47, ISBN 0066211212). A very practical survival guide by an actual survivor. Order the book
 |
 |
 |
I make no profit whatever on the books. Every penny received is given to The Samaritans to support their lifesaving work. The volunteers give generously of themselves, but it costs them money to continue operating and saving lives – money for facilities, phones and computers. Money is a reality. They need it; we give it. Sending them this small donation is our way of thanking them and helping them continue to help others. If you would like to know where the money goes, visit the Samaritans website. If you prefer not to make a donation to the Samaritans, take the book information above to your local bookstore and order the books there instead. If you would like to make a donation directly to the Samaritans, click here.
Out of the Nightmare: Recovery From Depression And Suicidal Pain, by David L. Conroy, PhD (Authors Choice Press, 2006, ISBN 0595414974). As if suicidal persons weren’t feeling bad enough already, our thoughtless attitudes can cause them to feel guilt and shame, and keep them from getting help in time. Dr. Conroy blasts apart the myths of suicide, and looks at suicidal feelings from the inside, in a down to earth, non-judgmental way. This is a book that will save lives by washing away the stigma of suicide and opening the door to a real way out of the nightmare. More info and reviews
Would you like to print out this page? Here is a plain black-on-white version that should print more easily.
Want to share your suicide story?
Please visit the Suicide Project and leave your story
First Couple Meet :-)
Went on my first meet with a couple last nice.
The plan went all wrong… lol. We did not hit it off.
The plan was a beer, see if she and he likes me. Well remember I am about to nail his lady so he has to like me. Then she has to like me too.
So was I am ass or not. Maybe I was as they said “thanks2 and bye bye and I sat alone in the pub… lol. Nice pub and it got me out for a few hours.
Does my bum look big in this?
Sunny Day And I Still Want To Die
Me again, its the most sunny day in years and I am stuck in here in the God dam tiny room and all I want to do is die.
Yes, even on my FaceBook. Yes I do have a few friends. OK, most are School mates so they have wives n stuff and have no interest in me hanging about and all they post is. “Great BBQ” “Great time with the kids”
WTF… I wish I was having a great time…..
Will my luck ever turn? 4 F******g years of me making a plan for it to go wrong or some git puts a stop to it…. I feel like Job (Not like Job Centre, its a Biblical story you say it with a e like Jobe) when he was tested by God to see if he was a true to him… Well I am tested. I still believe… So make it turn please…….!
WTF is today to bring?
Well here I am, its morning and I await to go to work, eating my toast and drinking a hot hot coffie. To be real I quite like it. Just need some butter and jam.
But then that reminds me of my Wife and the fun times all over Europe and even the World eating breakfast on a nice sunny morning. Bollox, now I am getting down more………………….
Today I have an interview and I dont think I am going to go…..
This is my dillemer. It means I will relocate, no issue I am happy to do that but its not where I want to move to. Also I dont have a deposit for a new place… No deposit here you see and its not what I am looking for.
What am I looking for? Well I dont bloddy know….. Lost, confuzed and looking to kill myself.
So Low I Can’t Be Botherd To Blog
Yes it’s true, I am so down, depessed and ****ed off that I can’t even be bothred to blog or even search for a job.
I am stuck in the god damn rut.
I have an interview today and I dont want to even go. Its for a job I dont want.
I need help….!
Another Weekend Of Hell
Well here I am again, its Sunday morning…
Friday nite was dull, went to the local pub and had a nice bit of food but no beers… And what a good idea that was too.
Then Saturday went to a car show, quite good but a bit sad all alone walking about.
Sunday, well off to another show… and later thos afternoon, well I will post later and let you know
Another Bank Holiday?
Bored Like Me
Well some would say brill, but I say bollox, yes you read correct. Another day just waiting fior it to go dark so I can go to sleep.
No money = no going out
No friends = no going out
My Wife still hates me
Go I am in a self depressing day today aint I……………………..
Off to the pictures or get laid?
Well I have been on my local dating website and e mailed 100 women with no god damn luck so far….
Are all the women stuck up and got issues?
Thats why they are single at 42 and the man ran off with another…?
They all have issues, WTF is wrong with u women? So its the pictures alone for me then….
Here she is
Crazy Woman
Not Dead
Damm, after locking my self in a room and a sad attemt at starving my self to death it failed and I am back on food.
How the heck do u do it without pain, I am too chicken to do it…
Easter.. WTF Wish I Was Dead
Today is bad to say the least. Its Easter Sunday and I actualy do wish I was Dead today.
So Good Friday came and I spent it all day in bed. WTF I hear you say, well yes I did. I was so low I just lay in bed in my own stink. I did get up for a while, went and got some pasta and knocked that up but but that was that. Then went to sleep. O what joys. Asleep it was great. No bloody walls looking at me all day.
So with a bounce, yes I think not on Saturday I arose and did a little programing on my other sites. I got Twitter to work with FaceBook to work with my Blog. What joys I had sorting that lot out
So for night time entertainment I took myself of the the pictures to see The Boat That Rocked. A very good little English film I had to say. But its quite strange that as I laughed at the situations I felt guilty at being happy and how much more fun it would have been with my wife with me.
So I am here, Sunday afternoon. I did go for a short walk in town. But all the shops are shut. Well I ain’t got any money anyway. Just like the song I guess.
So should I stay or should I go?
I even called a Psychic today. I called two of the buggers. Both could not offer much at all. Most I feel where guessing. I am still not sure on this subject. I just need hope to stop me ending it.
WTF is going wrong?
Tomorrow, F**k knows. More of the crap same maybe?
BBC NEWS | UK | UK Politics | No 10 ‘smear’ messages published
E-mails discussing smearing top Tories that led to the resignation of a senior Number 10 official have been published.
Damian McBride, the PM’s ex-political press officer, quit after the messages were picked up by a Westminster blog.
In them, Mr McBride made obscene and unfounded claims about the personal lives of party leader David Cameron and shadow chancellor George Osborne.
The Conservatives urged Gordon Brown to explain how the allegations came to be sent from an official e-mail account.
Shadow home secretary Chris Grayling said: “This is an exceptionally serious matter and he needs to explain immediately what happened.”
Claims were also made against the Tory backbencher Nadine Dorries, who says she is consulting lawyers.
The e-mails were originally sent to former government spin doctor Derek Draper, who runs a pro-Labour blog, before they came to the attention of Paul Staines, writer of the Guido Fawkes blog.
Mr McBride called the suggestions “a few ideas I’ve been working on for Red Rag” – a reference to a Labour website.
He also wrote in the e-mails, sent from his Number 10 address, that he had used a bit of ”poetic licence” based on what was known, to ”put the fear of God into Osborne”.
Mr McBride described the first as a ”solid investigative story”, but the other three as ”mainly gossipy, and intended to destabilise the Tories”.
He added added: ”Let’s think about how to sequence these in with others” – a suggestion that a longer-term plan to place stories was being hatched.
via BBC NEWS | UK | UK Politics | No 10 ‘smear’ messages published.
Told 2day I am still in a Job
Well today I got took into the office and was told that I still have a job for the moment…………
But I must stay on top of the job to keep it!!
Yesterday was bad, today take control?
What a day yesterday. Had half a argument with my Bos an d he said some stuff that I think was the nails to end to time.
This morning I am going to talk to hom about what he said and see what goes down.
4 days till I get the sack?
Well its Monday and I feel its 4 days till I get the sack.
Thursday could be the day.
I will let u know later on what vibes I get from my Boss
Sunday Suicide Day
What a bad day today is or was. Its just after 4:15 and I feel as down now as I did when I awoke at 7:00am
I just dont want to get out of bed. WTF is wrong today? So at 3;00pm I got up and walked into town to get some Red Bull and it helped a little so a short drive to Tesco and I came out with more Red Bull. tuna bake, pasta bake with chicken and tuna spread.
As I sit here now I have 3 cans of Red Bull rushing in my brain and 140gms of tuna and sweetcorn spread in my belly. Now if that does not get me going I give up… Err is that not what this site is about giving up??
Well I have to say its getting close.
If this is a test like Job in the Bilbe then I am sorry, I do belive and can you please make some thing good. I just want my wife back in my life and it to at least me nice again! WTF did I do wrong for it to be so bad every week! It was never like this not so long ago?
